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It’s Okay, That’s Alright|Dear Heart

Do you ever occur how much your words would wounds someone? As much as you think one single word can play a different motion. Today i was just happened to be in two situation: Both are pretty similiar.

So there’s a game in my Language class and we play that game as a team. Each one of the member of the team will go to the front and answer the question on a board. When it comes to my turn, beside i’m not into Language at all, i’m also one of the stupidest student at class–now you can guess how ia typically answer those question and lowering the score for my team.

But the team that I’m in at the first Language subject contains grown-ups people and very kind, which i meant they always said “It’s okay, that’s alright” once they saw that i tried so hard to picking up the pieces. And by how shaking my hands were trying to concentrate at the board. And by how hard i was trying to remember that foreign language i never really understand.

But in the second game we played in another Language class, i had to face those who aren’t supportive at all. The way they narrowing their eyes toward my answers, the way they pissed off as that they didn’t want to help me but act like they have any right to judge my wrong answer. That’s just not right.

In here i just wanna tell you that it’s totally fine to be kinder than necessary. And i take a note to myself as a promise, that if in any case I become one of the smartest and I’d have to see a person be in that position as mine right now, i’ll be the first one to say “It’s okay, that’s alright” to show that she/he shouldn’t feel totally sorry because she tried already.


One Honest Thing About Bullying

Can i tell you one honest thing about bullying?

I know everyone says that we should stop bullying and care for them and blah blah blah blah and we don’t need to hate those bullying victims, and that they all are not wrong, but you know what? I got some points you might understand:

-If you go to a place and people starting to hate you, that’s their fault. You are not wrong.

-Then if you move to another place, and people still bully you, that’s still their fault. Not yours.

-But if you go to another place and people still hatin’ you, that’s not their fault anymore. That might be yours.

Have you ever wondering why people keep hating you? Maybe because there’s something wrong with you–well, you might don’t wanna admit it at first. This might sounds sad, but this might be true too. If you are not wrong, then why people keep doing that? Go check yourself and look into the mirror.

I have some experiences with bullying. When i was younger I’ve been dealing with bullying and that sucks. Once i got older i watch my friends bullied each other. Now, take my friends. There are two different girls, call ’em A and B.

A is a cute girl and without any reasonable purpose, people hate her, except me. But she just bullied once: and that’s the bully’s fault, while she is still a good girl.

B is another girl that i used to care about. I’m the one who protects her when she get bullied. I’m the only one who wants to be her friend although–even me–don’t really like her. She’s been bullied when she was in kindergarten, elementary school and now. No wonder everybody hates her–That’s been her fault all the time. Once i told her to change her bad habbits or something, she refuses to listen.

Now, you know what happened? After i gave her friendship and protection and anything, she BULLIES ME BACK. BOOM!

So, no wonder everybody hates her. Bully got their reasons on her. Bully are not wrong on her case–because we won’t love that person who is able to bully us back, right? But if you have checked on yourself and find nothing is wrong with you, believe me, you know yourself better than i do–so, you may be right and they can be wrong.


That ‘Perks’

i am pretty sure you guys have heard of The Perks Of Being A Walleflower. i tell you, i don’t really like romance but i never get bored to watch that movie over and over again.

Its really hard to find teenage romance movies that aren’t cheesy and really predictable, which is why Perks was amazing and really understated. and honestly another thing i like about the Perks is that the story is not 100% about love, it’s also about friendship and everything. i just really like it.

and i mean, i know there’s some kissing scene and one moment when Charlie touching the bo*bs, but compared with other movies, the Perks is still categorized as ‘safe enough’. there’s no sex scene, there’s no other porn and it’s really cute. really touches the true life of a teenager whole-heartly *lol.

PS. i like Emma Watson’s haircut on this movie too!the-perks-of-being-a-wallflower-poster-big

Tonight, We Are Young!

For me, being a teenager must be very cool. In our age, which is i call as The Golden Age, we could make the world shocked by our brain and actions. That’s the definition of being a teenager for me.

okay, that’s not what i want to talk about right now, although the topic is related enough.

i have a friend, he is the same age as mine. we both are 16 years old. we have problems like other teenager. he became insane because he loves a girl that he is not even sure she would love him back. my problem? maybe not that big. but for me, mine is the worst problem.

i’m having some kind of anxiety disorder and it drive me crazy. it hurts me alot, like this is not a real me and everything. i’m fighting against this disorder in the past few years. i become depressed alot. maybe you thini this is just a little silly childish problem but i tell you, this is so fuckin’ hard that made our life insane. but tonight, it seems like we, me and him, become younger.

he said that he got that girl off from his mind. he is not given up, only decided not to chase that girl anymore. he said that he felt so free now. fyi, he’s been chasing that girl for a year and there’s alot of things he’s been through while loving that girl. cheating, dumping, and such. it is so hard and not easy. he’s been bullied on his school and got no motivation but that girl–which is absolutely hopeless for him. well, i won’t tell you more because it’s actually privacy.

and i decided to fight this disorder with harder way, a way that i never fought with that way before. but this is the best way, a way that i’ve been scared of. i gotta be brave and tell myself not to feel guilty. this is my choice, tonight, because this disorder, which is so hurt that i cannot tell you about it at all, has disturbing my life too much. anxiety disorder is not something you can just let go off. it’s rolling on your mind 24 hours per day.

we both made a big decision tonight and for me that was pretty cool. and because i was falling in love with Fun.:We are young, so, i kept listening to this lyric, to remind you guys out there who’s having anxiety disorder (which in my case, is COD) and to those guys who’s desperately broken-hearted, who’s been bullied so hard:

Tonight, we are young

so i set the world on fire

we can burn brighter

than the sun

ps. i told my friend that i was walking on a Mall, looking at people who walks around me, thinking about why couldn’t i live normally (without anxiety) like other people? that’s what made me think i need to get better 🙂