Hey bud, this is definitely something I’ve struggled with, and I can’t say it’s gone away… You just gotta keep fighting through, maybe not for yourself, but think about the effect that you killing yourself would have on those who love you, and those who are around you. I’m not gonna lie, that thought has been the only thing that has stopped me before. I hate the argument, but at the same time it makes sense. If you can’t exist for yourself, exist for the sake of others. People subconsciously value their family and friends more than they let on. They might not even realize it, but we value each other quite a bit. Ugh, this argument sucks, but believe me it helps.